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Distraction. The only thing that seems to work. And, it's absolutely my least favourite solution. But, it works.
I hate being a human. I strongly despise the emotions that I am compelled to feel. I wish I could turn them off. Strange fucking biology. What ridiculous phase of grief is that where you are jealous of them? I hate everything about this.
I don't like being a person. I'd much rather be a tree.